the girl behind the glitter

It’s a scene that most people know very personally. You’re in your bed or at the bar (ok, those are the 2 places it happens to me most frequently) mulling over your life’s most recent downfall. Whether it’s losing your job, the death of a loved one, a breakup, or life just sucking in general & things not going your way, we have all been there; defeated by sadness and pining for a break of happiness. What? You haven’t been there? Luuuccckkky!! {a lá Napoleon Dynamite} Well, let me tell you about my experience. My most recent bout of dejection had me tunnel-visioned on the crappy things that seemed to keep being thrown at my life by a merciless God. I reached out to one of my best friends, Kristen, and lamented, “My mom died 2 years ago! And then my best friends moved away! And then my job was really awful! And then Dad was really sick and close to death! And then I broke up with the same guy 3 times in one year (That’s a whole other blog!)! Why do I keep ending up here?? My bouts of happiness are so short-lived! I keep ending up here – crying, alone in my bed, with an empty box of Merlot!” Being the sage that she is, Kristen responded, “1. Put down the box of wine. It’s giving you wine teeth and you’re already an ugly crier. 2. Well, yeah, you have had to overcome many more challenges than the typical 27-year-old, but you also have to remember that even though all these things have happened to you, you always do end up happy!” She made the brilliant point that instead of only thinking, “Why do I always end up here?!” when I am downcast, I need to refocus on the plethora of times that I have actually been joyful in my life. I am blessed enough to always end up happy. Yeah, sure, life sucks sometimes. Sometimes it sucks and sucks and sucks. But. Even if it’s only for a brief moment, the sucking does stop. Maybe my coffee was extra delicious one morning. Maybe a student turned in an assignment on time for a change. Maybe I got to hang out with one of my 1,219 (according to Facebook!) friends. This blog will be an outpouring of those moments of happiness. I know that I’m already a week behind, but it will be my goal, NAY! My RESOLUTION! to write about the little joys in my life each day. But some days will really suck. That will be on here too, because let’s be honest, “If you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.” –Dolly Parton- Maybe those will be the days that one of you can reach out and remind me of the gadzllion things I have to be happy for. In here will be joyful moments (joyments?!), lessons learned, spiritual epiphanies, things that inspire me…lots of things. I hope that by beginning my Happiness Project, others will be inspired to change their own perspectives and join me for the ride.

This blog is dedicated to always, no matter what, ending up here.

In stilettos.

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One thought on “the girl behind the glitter

  1. What a happy way to start my morning. Your writing is very charming and your spirit is still as bright as when you were a girl. I think If you were present, your energy might overwhelm me this early in the morning– glowing on the screen is just right! Thank you for good wishes for my own “happiness project.” Look forward to more from your blog. It’s entertaining and very much in good taste. 🙂

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